Hi all 🙂 *waves*
Just an update really as I feel like I’ve gotten out of my routine of blogging (I miss you guys) BUT rest assured when I’m not lurking in the blog-o-sphere I’m usually doing something else that keeps me smiling and positive and feeling really good (yay)
Blogging: I’ve been nominated for a few more awards (yay 🙂 ) which I will do a formal post for later in the week but for now thank you to Charles for nominating me for the Seed of Light Award http://legendsofwindemere.com/2013/05/19/seed-of-light-award/ AND for the Semper Fidelis Award http://legendsofwindemere.com/2013/05/21/semper-fidelis-award/ Which I’ve never heard of before but Charles kindly wrote ‘Fighter to the end, Always coming back stronger, Glad she’s on my side’ Aww – Thank you again.
Last (but certainly not least) is the Lovely Blog Award by Petite Magique http://petitemagique.wordpress.com/2013/05/20/three-more-awards/ So thank YOU too 🙂 I am honoured
Also, I have been asked to write every now and then for the RCC and am working on some other posts for other blogs etc so I’m still writing but not as active on here for now. I don’t think I’ll be doing anywhere near as many posts as I was before now that…firstly things are going a little more smoothly at home and secondly due to work and trying to re-shuffle everything around etc I do have some posts ready in my mind but a few of them are about the past and I’m worried about bringing the tone back down to depressing when the reality is that we are doing OK so ill see how I feel when I’ve written them out etc
Regardless… I’m still here, I haven’t abandoned you lol I WILL reply to any comments I’ve missed -I would just rather take the time to read and respond properly rather than half heartedly…and please remember if you ever want a chat etc I always check my twitter (on the right) and email firstname.lastname@example.org or you can get in touch with the ‘contact me’ form at the top of my page…I’m never far away. You’ve all been so supportive and I am so thankful for that so the least I can do is remind you all that I’m always here to repay the favour etc
Work: I’ve been pretty busy with work -yup one week in and I still love it…my last shift we played the wii for an hour…such a hard job 😉
Counselling: I made -and had- my counselling appointment yesterday. It was nice to talk to him about the progress etc with hubby. I told him about ‘gym-gate’ (mentioned here) and even HE pointed out that at no point did hubby ACTUALLY call me fat…OR mention my weight…or that I needed to lose any lol (I knew this really) but we had a laugh about it.
We talked about ‘the friend’ and he said I did the right thing in leaving it open-ended…leaving the ball in her court and basically taking the higher route. He said I’m smart and he doesn’t know HOW I do it but whenever we talk I seem to have analysed the shit out of whatever it is we are talking about and figured it out logically. He said that despite the friend being (a dick) I had still managed to be smart enough to hold my own, stay calm and use tact …acknowledging that SHE has put ME in a corner and presenting HER with that predicament…ultimately asking HER for a solution. He said its clear that I care for her etc but also that I’ve established new boundaries and am pretty much covering my ass and keeping her at arms length.
He recognised that for the last few sessions its almost as if we have been running out of things to talk about…which is good as it means things are progressing and I’m healing 🙂
HOWEVER…he also told me that he’s due to leave soon…like we have 4 sessions left…maximum! *freak out freak out freak out!* I don’t know if I will start talking to the new one as RIGHT NOW I don’t feel the need BUT at the same time I don’t want to have no fallback IF another bombshell gets dropped. Especially not if I would then have to explain all the history to the new one whilst in a state of shock etc SO it may be worth meeting the new one -maybe once every few weeks or something- just for the sake of having someone to talk everything through with as I’m sure he’s going to go through things with his therapist which I’ll want to talk through with mine too …any thoughts?
Speaking of therapy…hubby STILL hasn’t been back to see his its NOT his fault, he’s been called in to work the last few weekends so its just a case of getting the time to go. I’m not happy about it, I feel like its dragging on a bit BUT we are still doing our 3 things each day and getting on well…I just want to carry on making those baby steps as right now we are just kind of drifting -albeit happily- but…I suppose I don’t want to let myself fall into a false sense of security all over again.
Phone date: had my phone date with my friend this eve and it was lovely 🙂 Caught up on loads and overall a really positive convo….glad I made the effort to arrange it 🙂
My photos for my scrapbook are on their way (yay) ….My Tesco order arrived yesterday (double yay)…I got my hair cut and dyed it today…I’m feeling fresh and I like it 🙂
How are you all doing?