Hi, I’m Beth
Until a few weeks ago I was happily married to – whom I thought was- my soul mate, it turns out I was wrong.
Through an unbelievable turn of events I discovered that our entire relationship has been a lie because- by his own admission- he is numb. He believes he doesn’t love me, he believes he never has and he fears he never will… But he wants to.
We THINK he has PTSD (click here to find out more) due to a haunting past, he has accepted that he needs professional help and he has asked that I help him through it. I know it’s going to be hard, I realise some people will wonder why I’m staying, but I also know that if it is what we think then it’s an illness…i wouldn’t leave him if we found out he had cancer… And this illness can be helped.
So this is my blog, firstly explaining the back story (which by the way I have done in separate posts, as trying to condense over a years worth of stuff into one was never going to happen…so for part 1 click here) and how these revelations came to light, but mainly as a place for me to express myself, a place to grieve the loss of our past, to document the trials we are sure to go through and to hopefully discover that we aren’t alone in this.
He has become comfortably numb