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Well…its not Monday anymore… but screw it.
I’ve had a really up and down week (or more) but I managed to tick some of my goals off. Actually writing these posts – as unmotivated as I feel at the time really does help because its so easy to forget what I HAVE achieved during a shitty week so writing them down is kind of like an ‘oh yeah’ moment where you feel a little better afterwards 🙂

So…
Last week I finished one of the books I was reading so one aim for the next week is to review it on here and finally do an Amazon review as promised. I am now starting the next one and so far I like it (even though I’m only a few pages in lol) I’m waiting for a time where I can sit and read a good chunk at my leisure rather than squeezing bits in here and there and only half paying attention so hopefully I’ll get to do that soon 🙂

I made my counselling appointment with the newbie…actually I went one step further and had a full blown session with her there and then…I survived and it was actually good to be surprised with it. It meant I didn’t have the time to fret about it beforehand (or chicken out and cancel) I will write about that more later on…regardless I like her and have the next one booked in the next week or so 🙂

I got paid...I went shopping…I practically forced myself to BUY something to wear as for the first hour or so I wandered around picking things up and then convincing myself I didn’t need or want them and leaving empty handed. I’m so not used to treating myself lol but I ended up with a sweet dress, some practical stuff and a bunch of stuff for other people lol. I still have some set aside for hubbys birthday AND more just ‘in the account’ Saying that its been less than a week ha ha but it feels nice to be able to run out for some milk without counting the pennies and checking the account so I think I’ll be able to curb my spending and stick to what I need- we shall see.

Attempt 1

Attempt 1

Attempt 2

Attempt 2

Also I have been practicing baking and decorating cakes in preparation for his birthday cake. I started with one layer of basic marble cake so it’s a bit flat lol but I just wanted to try icing it… my first attempt was terrible lol HOWEVER I didn’t have a rolling pin so… what’s that saying about blaming their tools? It tasted bloody amazing though!

The second attempt I played with cherries which actually dried the cake out a bit (as did putting it in the fridge) but the decorating improved a bit. Next time I’m going to do 2 layers (stacked) with cream and jam in the middle…mmmmm wish me luck lol

The Shine On Award

I was recently nominated for the Shine On Award by Writing The Body http://writingthebody.wordpress.com/2013/06/25/shine-on-award/  (Thank you very much 🙂 ) Of course it comes with rules -post it, link back, nominate 15 bloggers and share 7 random things about yourself. As always do what you wish with the award…I always do lol

Shine On Award

Shine On Award

7 random things:
I don’t like ice cream
Today I am bloated
I SHOULD be doing housework right now
I reverse parked a disabled van last week and still feel proud of myself
I haven’t bitten my nails for over a month
I keep having nightmares lately :/
I wouldn’t mind going back to bed today

Questions:
1.  Rank these kinds of weather from best to worst: Sunny and hot, misty and cold, rain and cool, snow, ice, windy
My answers: Sunny and hot – Rain and cool – Windy – Misty and cold- snow – ice
2.  Do you like outdoor music festivals?
My answer: No.  Hate them,
3.  Do you like drinking water?
My answer: yes, it used to be all I drank (apart from alcohol lol) but over the last few years tea and coffee has taken over so now it has to be ice cold
4.  Favourite alcoholic drink
My answer: Vodka and coke or baileys
5.  Best drug experience
My answer: I overdosed once (pain meds) when I was a teenager and the hallucinations were hilarious – dangerous of course and stupid and that would never happen again.
6.  Most fun while not taking anything
My answer: lol I don’t ‘take anything’ so I suppose most things that are meant to be fun…
7.  Greatest sorrow:
My answer: 2013

Nominees:
EVERY ONE OF YOU…yes you! I can’t choose a handful of you -especially as I haven’t caught up with anyone on here lately and so many of you inspire me in different ways so I want ALL of YOU to shine on 🙂
If you want this award…you are welcome to it…You deserve it 🙂

My goals for this week:

  • I have been sent 2,000 vinyl singles…yup 2,000! Which I need to sort through and try and sell somewhere… any ideas?
  • I need to get some of these thoughts written down and blogged as they’re taking over my mind a little
  • I will make that double layer cake and it will be great
  • I will be careful with my spending
  • Read & Review

PoGeHaGo:

  • I am happy that my cakes are improving
  • I am happy I got to blog today
  • I am thankful for my best friend from home being just a phone call away

xBx

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Motivation Monday: And she’s back in the game

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I am now a member 🙂

It’s been over a week since I updated about the world of Beth. It’s been busy – the good kind again. Last week and the next I’m doing extra work hours in the daytime – which is when I used to write- so by the time I’m home in the evening I’m just shattered and not in the mood to write much – plus then it’s cooking, cleaning, hubby time and early to bed so even if I was in the mood there just don’t seem to be enough hours lol.

I mentioned in a previous motivation post that I wanted to get some reading done and start dipping my toes into genres which wouldn’t usually interest me – how do I know this? I don’t!  I’ve not tried reading many other genres so I’m about to find out.

Over the last few months I’ve been sent some e-books to read – beta reading? etc So I’ve been catching up on those – I’m not allowed to blog about them yet as they’re confidential and all that but a few of the short stories have been great! Aside from those I have been lucky enough to get my hands on some rather special previews of 2 books written by some bloggers I follow on here –The Crazy Nigerian and Olivia from the Claymore and the Surcoat– which I am so excited to get my teeth into 🙂 I was sent them after stalking their blogs a week or so back and I have promised to leave a review etc on completion…but I think I will go a step further and leave a few on different sites -including on here- meaning now I need to figure out what makes a good book review lol. I’ve opted to start with the ‘Crazy Nigerians’ book as that one is shorter and so far – only a chapter or 2 in- I am loving it so hopefully I’ll find some spare time to keep charging through that -or I’ll just lose more sleep and stay up later lol.

I managed to get some writing done but not a lot, I did a post for the RCC, one for the Community Storyboard and am currently in the process of collaborating on a post for The MisAdventures of Vanilla which I am excited about but I guess time differences and schedules are getting in the way a little…regardless we will get there in the end. Apologies for not writing more lately, as I said above I have just not been able to get into the right mood to actually get all my thoughts written down. Watch this space though, Beth will bounce back as usual.

I DID manage to sort through some clothes etc but most of the unwanted stuff got thrown as they weren’t worthy of charity shopping and the stuff I kept… Well it’s all near and organised now so that’s something – doubt it will last long though lol

The details of my manual handling course are still pending but in the mean time I’ve been looking up a few short -fun- courses such as cupcake making (I’ve always wanted to do that lol) but there don’t seem to be many near me i.e. in the middle of nothingness so I may just learn from you tube for now. Speaking of cakes it’s hubby’s birthday coming up so I’m going to make him a cake *shock horror* or at least buy one and ice it or something – that way I have an excuse to practice making pretty (or manly) things and he can eat it lol. I tried for the first time EVER over the weekend and it was the ugliest cake I’ve ever seen BUT god it tasted amazing! Plus I didn’t have a rolling pin so had to use a makeshift one (a roll of cooking foil) and with that in mind it wasn’t THAT bad. This weekend I will be stocking up on tools and equipment to scratch my creative itch 🙂

Last week I met my husbands therapist, spoke to his mum AND his sister got in touch…AND it was my final final session with my counsellor – I will leave all of that for separate posts as there is quite a bit to cover.

OH…MY….Guess who I met last week….only THE legend himself BeetleyPete! AND MRS PETE TOO! It was great, we got photos -which I wont post on here- but that was one thing (Pete kindly reminded me) that I wanted to take away from our meet and greet 🙂

I had been a little nervous about meeting him – like with meeting anyone from the internet- both because I think you’re always worried that something will change the way you talk online i.e. dribbling when talking or smelling like a swamp (shallow I know) but luckily Pete (nor Mrs Pete) did either of those lol – and then comes in the danger factor. I learnt a long time ago that people online can be very different in person – heck I’ve learnt the same for the ones you’re married to! lol – Saying that the same goes for meeting any man I suppose- so despite my gut telling me all would be fine I was still prepared to go alone if that was the case – public place, phone calls when I’m leaving, maybe the odd spying friend watching through the window lol.

Needless to say none of that seemed necessary when it came down to it, in fact not only was Mrs Pete there but hubby came too! And not just to make sure I didn’t get kidnapped (adult-napped?) I had asked out of courtesy if he would like to come and to my surprise he said yes – despite knowing that he was about to meet someone whom knew a lot more about him than anyone else he knows (bar me of course) he was fine with it – as was Pete, no judgements, no snide comments which is more than I can say for the few people who know LESS than he does (well done Pete lol) I guess that’s the difference between maturity levels showing there.

As far as goals go it seems I actually didn’t do as bad as I thought, I still need to work on my spelling (only certain words) but everything else is ticked off 🙂

Goals for this week:

  • Make the counselling appointment
  • Buy creative tools and some well needed bits and bobs this weekend with my first full ‘pay check’
  • DON’T spend ALL of it in one go
  • Carry on reading
  • Fit in some blogging

PoGeHaGo

  • I am proud that I managed to ice my first ever cake without killing anyone in the process
  • I am happy that I now understand hubby a little better
  • I am thankful for bedtime reading

Have a good week 🙂

xBx

 
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Posted by on June 24, 2013 in Under construction

 

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Motivation Monday: Rollercoaster Ride

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Happy Monday everyone 🙂
I’ve had a busy week or so (posted about here if anyone’s interested) and this next week is set to be a rollercoaster….

Today I have my last counselling session with my current counsellor. I’m anxious about it, I’m really worried I’m going to cry when its time to say goodbye…like this is actually goodbye …forever! I’ve been thinking…it amazes me how he can walk away from this situation (not like that but…) and carry on without knowing how it ends. That would drive me insane! Lol I know they’re trained for stuff and they don’t get emotionally involved etc and I’m not the most important person in the world etc but still… does that mean all counsellors are capable of putting down a good book 3 chapters from the end and never even googling to find out the ending? Lol I suppose this is why I couldn’t be a counsellor – despite him telling me (repeatedly) I should consider it. The other reason I’m anxious is because saying goodbye to him means saying hello to a brand new counsellor at some point in the next few weeks…and seeing as there IS NO turnover/hand-over point (trust me…I’ve asked…there are no notes, no meetings nothing) I will have to tell the newbie my whole situation…from the start…in detail! Maybe I should just send him a link to my blog and wait for him to contact me once he’s caught up lol

Tomorrow I have THE dentist appointment…the biggie! (posted here) I have booked 2 days off work to recover…or just lay there and die for a few days. I don’t think I would be any good to anyone turning up miserable, unable to talk and drugged up to my eyeballs. Its not even anything massive being done to my mouth – well the equivalent of 4 fillings in one go… but seeing as my migraines have been full force over the last few weeks I’m kind of pre-empting their strike and covering my arse.

Wednesday…I will be recovering and I have planned to spend the day getting some posts written up – finally. I have so many ideas and brainstorms for posts but its just a case of writing them all down. Also since sorting out my bosses house – SO many trips to the charity shop…to the point where the women who work there no longer bother hiding their ‘urgh’ faces at the sight of more bags of clothing… I have been inspired to sort out my own. I have loads of clothes I don’t wear, I’ve kept some ‘just in case’ for years now…so whilst drugged up I will sort through them at my leisure and hopefully I’ll feel a little lighter all round after that.

ThursdayI am going with hubby to meet HIS therapist! I am nervous as hell…firstly because I don’t know what she’s going to say. The last time I went into a room with my husband and a professional was the day that hubby told me the truth and dropped his bombshell (posted here) so I’m sure you can understand why I’m a bit anxious, in the back of my mind I’ll be walking into a room with those two already knowing what’s coming and he will drop another one…. BUT apparently I’m going because she wants to meet me and has done from day one – to get my thoughts and everything else I suppose. Secondly I’m worried about dropping him into it and telling her things they haven’t covered yet or he’s not comfortable with; I spoke to my counsellor about it and he laughed and said its funny how much I put on my own shoulders and how responsible I feel. He reassured me she’s ready for most things and that I need to be honest to help my husband AND myself. Also its going to be hard going into a new surrounding and meeting a new person as I’m so used to my counsellor and his little room…lots of changes…Beth doesn’t like change lol (how ironic!)

Friday I am meeting up with a blogging friend…that’s right Beetley Pete (and his lovely wife 🙂 ) I’m excited and nervous as its our first meeting but more excited than anything else, I get to get out and see someone outside of my house and job and just be a human for a few hours! No secrets, Pete has known me (in the blog world) before AND after the bombshell, he’s read me at my worst, he knows my secrets…I think that’s a good thing ha ha Plus there’s coffee involved so… its win win in my book lol

Over the weekend we have a friends leaving DO so another excuse to dress up and get out for a while 🙂

My Goals:

  • I am itching to do a new course and now I have a regular income I’m considering signing up to one however apparently I’m meant to do a manual handling course for my job anyway so that could scratch that itch for now. Either way I want to research options for the future and find out when/where/how to do the work related one
  • Throw out some clothes as mentioned above
  • Get some blogging done including my next instalment for the character post on The MisAdventures of Vanilla, The community storyboard and another RCC post  <— my latest posts on those are linked here if anyones missed them. I caught up with a handful of blogs over the weekend and loved it so I’m going to aim to catch up with maybe 2 or 3 a day (start small considering the other goals) and I’ve still got those awards to pass on too.
  • Keep learning how to spell words -posted about here– I learned how to spell necessary and definitely over the last week and I’m (embarrassingly) proud of myself lol
  • Get a photo of me, Pete and Mrs Pete (that OK with you Pete?) I’m loving my photos at the moment… making new memories I suppose rather than pretending that nothing has happened and nothing is happening, I like to remind myself that I have moved forward in the past few months, that I am doing things for ME now and photos are my way of doing that 🙂

I think that should do it

PoGeHaGo:

  • I am thankful for plans, making plans, making lists, being organised…getting through them and ticking them off…accomplishments and small victories
  • I am proud of myself for recognising the changes ahead…but aiming to kick the shit out of them and roll with it
  • I am happy I’ve had some time to do things I enjoy lately (inc blogging) and that I will have some more time to continue this week

Hope you all have a great week 🙂

xBx

 
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Posted by on June 10, 2013 in Under construction

 

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Feel Good Friday!

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The last week or so has been busy at the Beth household. I’ve been spending the day doing wifey duties and sunbathing – oh yes she’s got a tan 🙂 – and in the evening I’m off to work. As soon as I get home it’s hubby’s bed time so I’ll go with him and get some zzzzs myself. We are just about settled with that routine but my blogging has taken a back seat whilst the sun is out.

It’s amazing how much healthier you feel with a bit of a tan (safe sunning of course, plenty of cream and water etc) I had my hair done 🙂 my boss painted my nails (and paid ME for it lol) in a bid to stop me biting them and instead pick the varnish. So far the nails and varnish have lasted 2 days so I’m doing well.

Hubby did his test thing for work and doesn’t think it went too well :/ we have to wait till August to see whether he’s right or not but I’m trying to keep positive.

I managed to order his birthday present before anything else 🙂 however it turns out I got the month of his birthday … And the day in theory too wrong so I’m actually a month ahead of schedule lol present WIN … Wife FAIL

I’ve managed to do learn how to spell ‘necessary’ by writing it over and over, training my brain to write it and my fingers to type it.

We are still doing our positive genuines ALMOST every day – one of my goals is to get back to doing it every day.

My three things for today:
-I am thankful for this gorgeous weather
-I am thankful for my job
-I am thankful for WordPress – the outlet to voice my thoughts and the community that comes with it

I’ve been nominated for a few more awards – http://ethicalhedonism.wordpress.com/2013/06/02/its-certainly-raining-awards/

And http://writingthebody.wordpress.com/2013/05/29/very-inspiring-blogger-award-2/

So thank you both for thinking of me – I will do an official post when I get some time.

Finally… I was emailed by a fellow blogger who has experienced the numbness of PTSD, he wanted to try to explain what it was like from my husbands point of view and oh my he did such a good job of it! I asked if I could quote some of his email to share with you as I know many of you are as lost as I am… he said by all means… And then he went one better. He’s going to write a series of posts for me to share with you all explaining what it’s like, all different aspects… From HIS experience (whilst acknowledging that all people are different) so they will be posted in the next few days.

Enjoy your weekend lovely bloggers!

xBx

(Again written and posted from the garden so apologies for spelling)

 
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Posted by on June 7, 2013 in Under construction

 

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Motivation Monday! Spelling Bee

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I had already done most of last Mondays goals by Wednesday – read here if you like 🙂

I managed to churn out a few guest posts towards the end of last week which I’m happy about; One for Kiras new blog which is a really cool multi-blogger ongoing story – check it out the blog here http://themisadventuresofvanilla.com/more-than-a-stripper/ it’s a great idea! (My post will be written in and published to suit the storyline) I wrote a motivational post for the RCC – http://romeconstructioncrew.com/ -which I will be writing for every now and then -again my post will be published when it suits. If you’re not already familiar with the RCC (Rome Construction Crew) then I recommend checking out the site and other crew members. Lastly I wrote a third post for Ionia’s new blog which is a sounding board for short stories, poems and wotnot… blog and post found here…. http://neverendingstorydepository.wordpress.com/2013/05/24/rain-rain-go-away/
I’m loving all these new group blogs – I wouldn’t know the first thing about setting that up so well done guys for working out WordPress and giving us even more outlets to write.

I haven’t done a daily post challenge for a few weeks because they haven’t done any that really got my creativeness flowing but hopefully they’ll pull something fun out soon.

I finished my scrapbook, my wish book and posted photos to a relative this weekend so consider me creative(d) lol Just a few finishing touches to add to the book but I did do a sketch of a dress I dreamt about last night so that’s extra points right there surely?

I finished reading a book I’ve been dying to finish for weeks now. A Girly one and I enjoyed it – I also managed to sneak in a read suggested by mocha from http://liveuntil.com/ ….http://jamesallen.wwwhubs.com/think.htm

This week:
This week my aim is to learn to spell some words which always catch me out. I’ve always been good with spelling but a few words always mix me up a bit- such as definitely – I always opt for “deffo” for fear of looking stupid and I hate the word deffo lol. Completely always gets me too and there are a few more which i’ll add to my list when I come across them. So I think I’ll work on one every few days or so until I’ve trained myself to remember them the right way round and stop relying on spell-check. The annoying thing with my spell check is that it autocorrects some words as I write them so you don’t realise they’re wrong until you’ve got to write them unaided.

Also I was sent an online ‘book’ which I’m determined to get through but I’m not a fan of screen reading so it’s going to be a challenge – plus I made a mistake of picking up a new paperback and I’m already hooked so regardless I’ll be reading SOMETHING this week.

Hubby’s birthday is coming up and my first pay day is just around the corner so … *deep breath*  I WILL be buying his present BEFORE treating myself. Sooo tempting but it’s very rare that I can buy gifts mid year (usually I spend Xmas and birthday money on everyone’s prezzies for the rest of the year in the January sales) so this year I’m actually looking forward to getting him something HE really wants rather than buying things that are boring but useful or that we could both use or that would look nice in the house lol -yup I’m one of THOSE people.

He’s also got a test tomorrow – basically for a promotion – more hours, more responsibility and more money so I intend to carry on sending positive “good luck” vibes too 🙂 – will you join me in that?

3 PoGeHaGo:

  • I am thankful for the rain finally stopping (bet I’ve jinxed it now)
  • I am thankful that I’m finally earning some extra pocket money (time and a half today whoop whoop)
  • I am thankful for my family and friends… And my phone – without which I probably wouldn’t speak to any of them

Happy Monday 🙂

xBx

 
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Posted by on May 27, 2013 in Under construction

 

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Motivation Monday! Stuck on you

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Its time for my Motivation Monday post; I’ve already done a motivation themed post for the Rome Construction Crew here… http://romeconstructioncrew.com/2013/05/19/three-little-things/ If you haven’t visited the RCC website yet you really should, it’s great and I’m really impressed with how its going (Well done Bradley)

Last week was pretty much a write-off for me just grr after grr after arrrrgggghhhhhhhh! Lol BUT thankfully things changed around towards the end of it.

My 3 positives every day are going well -as are my husbands.

I haven’t had another phone date with my friend yet as I’ve been working most evenings BUT its still in the pipeline. I DID however call my grandparents and my great-aunt over the last week and spent at least 45 minutes talking to each one. I love talking to them, they’re always so happy to hear from me and they’re so funny! So I suppose you could class that as my weeks phone usage right there.

Hubby is reminding me to clean my teeth after every sugary thing -and I’m doing it- we even stocked up on toothpaste and floss last week so that’s that sorted lol.

My photos are on their way so hopefully this week I can finally finish my wedding book (Nothing like finally getting around to finishing an old task)

Job is going great, it doesn’t feel like work at all…when your boss texts and says ‘great, see you tomo for some hardcore organising…don’t go too crazy on the thigh rubbing’ (I LOVE organising) you know you’ve found the right job lol.

Goals for this week:

Make a counselling appointment – I had to cancel the one last week -or even the week before that- and although at the moment I don’t feel like there’s anything (hubby related) worrying me… I think I would feel better knowing I have him on hand and up to speed with our progress in case another bombshell gets dropped (maybe a negative way to look at it but when you look at hubbys history of bombshells…. ) Plus its something to do lol, I can rant about other stuff etc

Do my scrapbook …I’ve got my glue ready…come oooonnnn photos 🙂 I also have a little notepad which I stick pictures of things I want in…I’ve had the same one for years. Just stuff for the house or clothes I’ve seen etc…even boring body lotions or hair products…and nothing extravagant either really. I don’t often spend money on myself – probably because I never have much to play with lol and if I do I end up bargain hunting. I’d much rather spend £15 total on a few items than £15 on one top but every now and then (we are talking maybe once or twice a year btw) I’ll pick something out of it and treat myself…well I haven’t stuck anything in that book for ages now and instead have loads of little bits of paper lying around so I may as well glue them all in as well 🙂

Call my friend (the good one)…we’ve text etc but its just not the same sometimes is it? And on the subject of friends I want to password protect the posts about the other one on here – not because I’m worried she will see them but because I feel like that’s closed now and I don’t really want it coming back to bite me in the bum later

PoGeHaGo (Positive/Genuine/Happy/Good)

  • I am thankful that I love my job
  • I’m happy that my husband and I are getting on better than ever (except for one little man-comment last night but I’ll blog that later)
  • I’m happy I had the chance to blog this morning 🙂

xBx

 
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Posted by on May 20, 2013 in Under construction

 

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